Things I am include the following:
-assigned female at birth, presently masculinizing with testosterone
-transmasculine and genderqueer
-ethnically white (Anglo-Saxon), Caucasian, Polish, Danish, and Jewish; born and living in Canada, and writing against racism
-queer in terms of politics, sexual orientation, and verb
-sometimes an offensively unapologetic cunt
-often an assclown
-a skeptical anarcha-feminist
-a full-tilt anti-essentialist (exceptions: lactose-intolerance and intolerance of intolerance)
-college-educated with the equivalent of a bachelor’s degree, with only a 2-year degree and a medical office diploma to show for it
-pescetarian with a profound respect for veganism as a political identity
-an occasional participant in rituals of body modification and body play
-a survivor of manifold sexual traumas, child abuse and neglect, innumerable suicidal gestures, and a lifetime of being targeted for violence
-a fucking warrior
-a masochist (both like in a case study and like in ass-less leather chaps)
-socially introverted
-poor (presently living exclusively on a fixed income and a lot of help)
-previously diagnosed with dissociative identity disorder; presently querying the very strong possibility of post-traumatic stress disorder and sexual masochism
-postmodernist, psychoanalytic, and intersectional
Things I am not include the following:
-male, a man, a trans man, a transman, a guy, or “your buddy, guy”
-a “chick”, your “baby”, woman, womyn, girl, babe, hunny, a lady, sugartits, or sweetie
-binary-gendered
-sugar-coated
-weak, vulnerable, a victim
-persistently far too serious to take joy in anything in life or on the intarwebz
-critically unthinking, or thumping just as hard on a science textbook as my perceived opponents thump on canonized religious literature
-dependent on other people’s attention
I’ve been writing already for ten years. Perhaps because I was raised in an environment where a dominating meme was “children should be seen and not heard”, I have had a lot of time to think about how to compose my thoughts. I believe the complexity and plurality of my thoughts is conveyed in my writing style.
I am comfortable with not having a definitive, categorical answer for everything.
Here’s an entry that explains why I chose my handle, for those who are confused:
http://haifischgeweint.wordpress.com/2011/12/31/the-origin-of-my-handle-haifischgeweint/
With all respect may I ask, do you have a pronoun He, She, Ze that you would prefer others (me) to use when discussing your blog entries at other blogs?
I prefer any pronoun other than she. Most people pick one (usually the one I don’t prefer) and run with it. A few get so confused, the pronoun they choose changes with every new sentence.
Thanks. FWIW, “She” would not have been the one I would have picked, though I most admit, I dislike “new” words and the “Ze” stuff bugs me (I may be old), though I completely understand the need for it and at heart wouldn’t mind a world that used it. Thanks again.
Haifisch,
I would have posted this on Crommunist’s site, but he’s closed comments. I’m unsure if this is the proper forum for this communication, but I can’t find information for personal contact.
I wish to apologize to you for my intemperate and, frankly, abusive language on your guest post at Crommunist’s site. My gratuitous use of expletives and personal insults were entirely uncalled for, and I can only plead encountering that discussion during a particularly acute episode of impaired mental health. This is not intended as an excuse, but hopefully an ameliorative. While we apparently disagree on several points, there is/was no excuse for my anger and vituperative comments.
I have not reviewed the remainder of that discussion, as yet, as it’s still somewhat of a trigger/destabilizing element with regards to my mental health at this point. Thus, if you responded to me, I have not seen that content yet.
Again, I apologize.
-PatrickG
I have triggers too. The best thing I can do for myself and everyone else is just admit how I am feeling (rather than externalize it) and disengage (often permanently, at least with respect to the particular conversation/stimulus that caused a trigger).
I hope you can take care of yourself and seek out what you need.