Having just finished writing about microaggression and rape culture, I found myself today sifting through hundreds of responses to a man who declared that he had gotten drunk at a party where everyone thought he was Really Important®; and where the booze just kind of went straight to his head, causing him to sexually assault … Continue reading »
Category Archives: Emotionally Dissociated
Poverty Transmission
I am now in the process of packing up what little of my things remain, making arrangements to stash certain things I wish not to lose, and doing the work of getting rid of everything else by any means necessary. As I do this, my thoughts flood with memories of how hard it was growing … Continue reading »
Collapsed
My life is taking a turn towards turbulent rivers these days. The night before yesterday, my at-home internet connection was completely severed (and yet I continue to be billed for services). Yesterday afternoon, without invitation or warning (unless you count the few hundred hits from a “non-existent” website with RCMP in the URL), a couple … Continue reading »
Sex Work: Part II (It’s Political)
It’s been quite some time since I wrote about my personal relationship with sex work. Our relationship went on for eight years. But a couple of years ago, after I survived an exceptionally dangerous situation I promised myself I would never put myself in, I decided to just be friends with sex work and stop … Continue reading »
Masculinity
I had a flood of deep introspective thought yesterday night, as I slipped into an emotionally vulnerable state in the dark, somewhere between exhausted and asleep. One of the things I began to think further about was what masculinity means, as I subjectively experience it. And the most immediate thing that occurred to me was … Continue reading »
A Friday Morning Unusual
I have been struggling without my emotional compass for a few weeks now, experiencing very intense but brief bursts of acute emotional awareness, and slipping away again into numbness and dissociation within a mere couple of hours. This has been the emotional context in which the marked majority of my entire life has played out … Continue reading »
On Aggravated Suicide
I am only capable of speaking on this subject for myself, but I am able to do so today with my own voice, despite trying countless times to throw myself away. Nothing carries the emotional gravity of those words a person would give their own life to say, even just to a single person. But … Continue reading »
Cis People, Trans* People, Transition, & Hormones
The other day, I attended my friend’s sixth hook suspension. She was hoisted up into euphoric bliss in a lotus position. Pictured below is moments before her euphoria reached full tilt, as she was given what is essentially an under-duck. And that’s how I felt yesterday, reflecting on the hit of euphoria I felt (through … Continue reading »
Miscarriage of Justice
Disclaimer: This is a very intense blog entry of a very dark subject matter. It has come to my attention that further to this series of myths and misleading arguments perpetuated by the pro-life movement, Canadian pro-lifers desire the detainment and imprisonment of women, on charges of murder, for complications of pregnancy that take their … Continue reading »
An Open Letter To All Anti-Choicers
Tomorrow at noon, a “New Abortion Caravan” full of brain-washed young adults is showing up at the Vancouver Art Gallery — its first stop across Canada, in an anti-choice campaign that co-opts the language and concept of the original Abortion Caravan (a pro-choice campaign that went across Canada in 1970) for the exact opposite end … Continue reading »
